Have you ever had that feeling that you are in the way. or that you have friends that YOU like to hang out with but you don't knoq if they want to hang with you... like you are an intruder... so you go off and hang by yourself? I keep getting this feeling, I don't know why... but I hate it. I know I am loved by God. but sometimes I just don't feel like I fit in here... am I the only one feeling this way?
Why do I feel this way? I have thought that it is God's way of keeping me away from any temptations? IDK! I widh I knew.
Maybe I just want to know that I am not "an invader" but why would I feel this when I know it makes no sense, when I know I am loved by my friends and Family, and especially Christ.
I guess I want someone to come up to me and invite me to do something, or say that they enjoy hanging with me... I am not saying all this ot get a pity party, Believe me, that is not the point of my Blog.
the point is, even when we tear ourselves down, even though we have our days where we just want it to end, and just give into what the World wants, and wanting to be like everybody else, thinking there is nothing left. THERE IS! there is Hope, and Joy, and Peace in Knowing that God is always there, we are not the intruders, we don't have to go hang all alone, we have to truly put our lives in his hands, truly trust in him, know that no matter what happens know and trust that it is for the better. Sometimes, we have to suffer, when do we usually call out to God? When life is purely amazing? when everything is going great, we have the grades we wants, our friends are amazing, nothing bad seems to be happening? No, we call out when we need help, when the world seems to be turning upside down, and nothing seems to be going right.
but, alot of us, me included don't always realize that what God is doing in for the better. this isn't God trying to make out lives miserable. have you ever though how mad we would be, and how upset we would all be if God did to us for what we do to him? We act as if we don't know him, I can't imagine what that would feel like. God denying me. can you?
I truly don't know if this is making any sense... please let me know, give me some feed back.
I am sort of leaving it unfinished, I know. but I have spent plenty time on the computer.
please comment, I would love inputs, questions. anything really.
God Bless
Psalm 62:2
I thought that you should know that you are far from burdensome to hang out with. I find it not only fun but also edifying. I enjoy our deeper conversations about the conflicts going on in our lives, seeing how remarkably similar they are, and I enjoy laughing and goofing off with you.
ReplyDeleteI can definitely relate to your feelings though, I often feel like I am the only one who ever wants to do anything, like I'm always pestering people into doing things, which helps me to enjoy your invitations all the more thoroughly.
I think something that I often forget to do is think from the other parties perspective, perhaps they have the same insecurities, they are afraid that you don't want to hang out with them that you might say no so they just won't ask for fear of rejection. As humans and girls we definitely have a tendency to over think things. It's ridiculous, I know that my friends would never throw an invitation of mine in my face, utterly reject me and say they never want to see me again, but you would think that i believe they would do just that by how i get nervous to invite people to do things. haha. Way to be human Ruth. Anyway, my point is, don't give up on people.
I am so glad to see that you are relying on God as your source of comfort. Even if someone does utterly reject you, God won't. He is with you all the time and He won't leave you alone. I thin that is something that I often forget. Lately though, I have been realizing how i crave His company, whenever I don't spend that quality time with Him in the morning and night I go crazy. I think "God I miss you! I need some time with you." It has been really cool to realize how He woos us and draws us into Him. I praise Him because He is steadfast.
A verse you might find encouraging is James 1:12
I think that's it anyway. "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial for, when he has stood the test he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life God has promised to those who love Him."
Haha nice short comment for you.
Love ya little sis.
I have felt the same way, many times. In one instance, God had removed me from a group of friends that was being corrupted by the world. But it still feels like the roots have been torn out of a plant. I suppose that's why our taproot, our main root, should be in Christ alone.
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