Have you ever had that feeling that you are in the way. or that you have friends that YOU like to hang out with but you don't knoq if they want to hang with you... like you are an intruder... so you go off and hang by yourself? I keep getting this feeling, I don't know why... but I hate it. I know I am loved by God. but sometimes I just don't feel like I fit in here... am I the only one feeling this way?
Why do I feel this way? I have thought that it is God's way of keeping me away from any temptations? IDK! I widh I knew.
Maybe I just want to know that I am not "an invader" but why would I feel this when I know it makes no sense, when I know I am loved by my friends and Family, and especially Christ.
I guess I want someone to come up to me and invite me to do something, or say that they enjoy hanging with me... I am not saying all this ot get a pity party, Believe me, that is not the point of my Blog.
the point is, even when we tear ourselves down, even though we have our days where we just want it to end, and just give into what the World wants, and wanting to be like everybody else, thinking there is nothing left. THERE IS! there is Hope, and Joy, and Peace in Knowing that God is always there, we are not the intruders, we don't have to go hang all alone, we have to truly put our lives in his hands, truly trust in him, know that no matter what happens know and trust that it is for the better. Sometimes, we have to suffer, when do we usually call out to God? When life is purely amazing? when everything is going great, we have the grades we wants, our friends are amazing, nothing bad seems to be happening? No, we call out when we need help, when the world seems to be turning upside down, and nothing seems to be going right.
but, alot of us, me included don't always realize that what God is doing in for the better. this isn't God trying to make out lives miserable. have you ever though how mad we would be, and how upset we would all be if God did to us for what we do to him? We act as if we don't know him, I can't imagine what that would feel like. God denying me. can you?
I truly don't know if this is making any sense... please let me know, give me some feed back.
I am sort of leaving it unfinished, I know. but I have spent plenty time on the computer.
please comment, I would love inputs, questions. anything really.
God Bless
Psalm 62:2
